E duminica iar...

E dimineata...e duminica si trebuie sa ma mai duc si la servici...si nu-i chef de nimic...
Afara e iarna, parca ar veni din nou Craciunul...
As lenevi toata ziua in pat, cu un bol de popcorn sau chipsuri, un vin sec, uitandu-ma la clasicele filme cu Audrey Hepburn...si daca mi-ai fi alaturi ar fi si mai bine...
Back to reality....sunday...work...no nightmare last night, only cartoons....
Cateva melodii care ma bine dispun...

nobody knows...

Si daca toate visele se naruie?... daca nu exista cale de mijloc?...
mi-e frica... as vrea sa dorm si sa visez... vreau sa cred ca va fi bine intr-un final...
ma repet cu o melodie, insa imi place mult...

settings

• dreaming mode: on
• fears: off
• eyes: wide open
• reality: off
• prezence: not on earth
• floating: on
• thinking: definitely off!
• refuse to act like an adult: oh yes!!!
• flying: on without falls
• confusion: really on...
• will: no will today
• sleep mode: no nightmares, no sweet dreams, just sleepmode on
• wishes:
  

"Are you mocking me?"
":|...stop asking stupid questions...wish...now!"
"ok, ok...london"
"that's a wish?"
"fuck off!!'
"well, if that's your wish...i'm out of here!"

• consciousness: banned today by wish
  

just a little bit of grey's anatomy...

When we say things like "people don't change" it drives scientist crazy because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting things be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again.
Meredith: You knew? You knew they were going to cut her open?
Cristina: No. No!
Meredith: Lexie just said that you knew!
Cristina: Sutures! I knew they were doing sutures on themselves. And I didn't think I needed to say anything because I shut it down. I handled it!
Meredith: Well, apparently you didn't, because it almost cost Lexie her job, not to mention that Sadie almost died in there!
Cristina: Okay, Sadie did that to herself. And let's not pretend that you have some sort of relationship with Lexie? Let's not pretend that you care about her.
Meredith: I care about my job! And I care about doing the right thing!
Cristina: Who are you to lecture me about doing the right thing?! Are you kidding me? You're not an attending, Meredith. You may be sleeping with one, but you aren't one yet.
Meredith: Is that what this is about? Derek? It's always going to be about Derek?
Cristina: Okay, fine, it's not about Derek, it's about you and me, and the fact that you didn't have my back in that room!
Meredith: What would you have wanted me to say...
Cristina: I don't know, anything! You should have said anything! You have a relationship with the Chief. You have his ear. But you didn't say anything to defend me! Because this isn't just on me. I mean, you just stood there and you watched him take me out of the running for solo surgery. You let me take all the blame. But the fact is that we all had interns in that room. We all failed to supervise them. And if your friend had died in there, that would have been on all of us too. You should have said that.

Meredith: Cristina.
Cristina: How are you fine? How are you just completely fine? I'm ruined, okay? I am dead. I am wrecked. And you're just walking around, what? Babysitting me, as if you didn't go through the same thing, too. Why are you okay?
Meredith: I don't know.
Cristina: You know what? You know, you were there, too. You were there, too. With your sad eyes screaming at me to save his life.
Meredith: I wasn't...
Cristina: Telling the guy to shoot you and not giving a crap about yourself or your pregnancy.
Meredith: Cristina!
Cristina: I didn't have a choice! And you did that! If it was anyone else on the table, if it was anyone else standing there, I would have walked away!
Meredith: You would not have--
Cristina: I would have walked away!
Meredith: You--
Cristina: And then I wouldn't be here!

Cristina: What is wrong with you?
Meredith: Everything is wrong. Derek is decaptiting a teenager and April Kepner is assisting. And you're sitting reading about lillies of the freakin' valley.
Cristina: Well, you prefer peonies?
Meredith: We are not better. (Cristina sighs) Cristina, a psychatrist given several opportunties, has deemed me unfit to do my job.
Cristina: Well, he'll get over it. Just go back in a couple of days.
Meredith: You are not better.
Cristina: Well, in a couple days I'll be better, too.
Meredith: In a couple days, you'll be married.
Cristina: Are you trying to talk me out of this?
Meredith: Look at me and tell me that you're sure.
Cristina: Okay, you know, no you don't get to do this, okay? All you get to do is help me break the tie between of the lilies of the valley and the peonies. That's it.
Meredith: No, no, I do get to do this. I do get to do this, Derek is the love of my life, but you're my soulmate. I do get to do this. I mean, why can't it wait six months?
Cristina: Please.
Meredith: Your flowers aren't going anywhere. You broke up with him because he couldn't choose you.
Cristina: Don't. Don't do this.
Meredith: Just why does it have to be right now?
Cristina: You know what I think? I think you should tell Derek about the miscarriage. Meredith: We're talking about you.
Cristina: We're talking about us not being better. Then you need to tell him.
Meredith: He's not ready. He's not okay.
Cristina: Well, you're not okay. You should tell him.

Every cell in the human body regenerates on average every seven years. Like snakes, in our own way we shed our skin. Biologically we are brand new people. We may look the same, we probably do, the change isn't visible at least in most of us, but we are all changed completely forever.

Meredith: What are we picking?
Cristina: Dress color. I'm not wearing white, it's sexist and vaguely racist. No white, no vail, no rice.
Meredith: Well, what would your mother say?
Cristina: Oh, no mother.

I wish...

M-a zis sa-mi pun o dorinta ca cele pe care le-am enumarat mai jos se intampla deja...si are dreptate...ma gandeam atunci ce as putea sa-mi doresc...dar fara sa fie ceva material...case, masini, camere foto sau eu stiu ce altceva, cu totii ni le dorim... dar nu la acest gen de dorinta ma gandeam eu... si m-am gandit... Imi doresc... しないでは、ほとんどのが、私の友人を忘れないように、夜は泣いている以上の笑顔に、より簡単に息をする私はすべてが悪く終わるのではないかと懸念していなかった悪夢、怯えで私に目を覚ます私は恐れていないもっと欲しい. Cam atat imi doresc!

cele 60 de dorinte...

In fiecare an de revelion, mai exact la ora 11:59 aveam o lista cu 60 de dorinte...Se spune ca atunci ti se indeplinesc toate dorintele pe care ti le pui in ultimul minut din an...

Si in acest an am 60 de dorinte...

sa ma trezesc zi de zi si primul lucru pe care-l vad, sa fie chipul tau... primul sunet sa fie un "te iubesc" somnoros... prima atingere sa fie imbratisarea ta...cand sunt trista sa-mi zambesti, cand plang sa ma alinti, cand gresesc sa ma ierti...sa dansam impreuna...sa visam impreuna...sa vedem lumea impreuna..sa colindam pesten 7 mari si 7 tari...sa coloram lumea cu iubirea noastra... sa te am clipa de clipa alaturi de mine...

Te iubesc! La multi ani!

Iubirea a inceput cu primul tau sarut...

Tu ai adus iubirea in viata mea...Te iubesc!
E soare si-mi pare
Ca lumea asta-toata e a mea
Lumina calda,lina
Tu ai adus iubire-n viata mea

Ce-as fi fost fara tine eu nu vreau sa stiu
As fi fost poate vantul ce sufla-n pustiu

Pe mine m-ai ales
Si-atunci am inteles
Iubirea a – nceput
Cu primul tau sarut

E luna , noapte buna
O aripa de inger m-a imbratisat
Si poate stele toate
Imi lumineaza pasii pana-n zori

Ce-as fi fost fara tine eu nu vreau sa stiu
As fi fost poate vantul ce sufla-n pustiu

R x 2:
Pe mine m-ai ales
Si-atunci am inteles
Iubirea a – nceput
Cu primul tau sarut
Cu primul tau sarut...

Pe mine m-ai ales
Si-atunci am inteles
Iubirea a – nceput
Cu prïmul tau sarut

Craciun fericit!

Cu intarziere apar aici si va zic un Craciun fericit sa aveti...sa va bucurati de fiecare clipa alaturi de cei dragi ca niciodata nu se stie cat vor fi langa noi...
Eu...de abia astept sa plec la munte... momente de liniste si pace...e tot ce am nevoie acum.

Pentru Teo...

Cand toata lumea se bucura de brazi, de instalatii si globuri, Teodora sufera...Are tumora epifizala, adica tumora pe creier...Are 18 ani si este o fata extraordinara...Atat de frumoasa, atat de vesela, atat de saritoare si atat de tanara...
Nici nu imi vine sa cred ca este vorba de ea, Teodora, colega noastra in actiunile de voluntariat.
Mi-ar placea sa o pot ajuta cu mai mult, insa din pacate nu-mi sta in putinta...
Nu ramaneti indiferenti si ganditi-va ca este singurul copil la parinti...ca merita sa afle ce inseamna viata, ca merita sa se bucure de fiecare clipa ca toti ceilalti. Orice ajutor conteaza, cat de mic este...pentru Teo inseamna speranta!

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