5 ani de activitate...

S-au stins luminile...s-a format un cerc din toti cei prezenti...priveam nedumerita...ce se intampla?
Toti au inceput sa cante "La multi ani"...eu eram ceva mai in mijlocul cercului, asa ca m-am indepartat spre o parte a lui ca sa ma prind si eu in cerc. Am inceput si eu sa cant si sa bat din palme ca toti ceilalti... Zambeam nestiind exact ce se intampla... Din holul din spate au aparut fetele impreuna cu doamna director cu un tort... Initial am crezut ca tortul este pentru colega noastra care in ziua respectiva implinea anii, si totusi... toti ma priveau pe mine... Doamna director imi facuse semn sa ma apropii asa ca m-am indreptat usor spre ele nesigura si inca surprinsa... este pentru mine?
Era pentru mine... un tort cu cele 7 principii ale Crucii Rosii, un tort pentru toti anii petrecuti in aceasta organizatie, un tort de multumire de la voluntarii care mi-au fost alaturi in toti acesti ani...
Rareori sunt luata prin surprindere, insa acum eram complet uimita de surpriza, m-am emotionat si imi venea sa plang...de fericire, ca am alaturi niste persoane minunate, de tristete ca ma despart de ei...
Cand am privit tortul toate amintirile urate, supararile si certurile avute de-alungul timpului s-au facut uitate, ramanandu-mi in minte doar prima zi... 1 decembrie 2007...
1 decembrie 2007 - depunere coroana Zi Nationala a Romaniei - prima mea zi ca voluntar al Crucii Rosii Iasi...

"Fata, ce-o sa-ti placa, iti zic. E super, vino si tu" imi zicea Diana. Ma gandeam ca e nebuna... Nu era prima data cand faceam voluntariat, insa nu stiam de ce ar sta un om zi si noapte la activitati de voluntariat...
Dar mi-am facut curaj si am decis sa ma alatur Crucii Rosii, sa inteleg ce este atat de minunat...
Am ajuns la sediul CR, dimineata, ora 08:00, multi voluntari, agitatie, galagie... Sunt timida din fire si nu reusesc sa ma integrez foarte repede sau cel putin asa era acum 5 ani... Mi-am luat un timp sa analizez putin lumea din jur dupa care m-am inarmat cu un zambet si timida, m-am alaturat verisoarei mele...
Asta a fost tot! Caci iata-ma astazi, 18 decembrie 2012, in acelasi loc, cu parte din aceeasi oameni...
N-as fi fost eu daca n-as fi devenit voluntar la Crucea Rosie... aici am cunoscut oameni superbi care mi-au devenit prieteni si familie, aici am gasit omul minunat care-mi da in fiecare zi un motiv sa zambesc si o tresarire de inima, aici am crescut si m-am format ca persoana, aici am devenit eu, cea de azi...
Pastrez in suflet zambetul fiecarui voluntar si plec cu amintirile activitatilor facut in cadrul CR.
Va multumesc!

Da... cam asa ceva...

Nu mi-as fi imaginat vreodata ca voi ajunge sa iubesc cu atata putere... dar cum as putea sa nu te iubesc cand esti atat de minunat?

When I see myself
I'm seeing you too
as long as I remember
and I'm feeling like I knew
that my jokes aren't funny
the truth isn't true
if there was no you

If you were my boat in the deep blue sea
I probably sink you down
I know I should have thanked you for carrying me
but for you I will happily drown

All along your way
the darkest night the longest day
I know what to say to make you laugh
and nothing you could do
could make me turn my back on you
when you're looking for a fight
I'm your man
when you need a friend
you got my hand

And what I really mean
what I'm trying hard to say
is that I'm counting on you
and you got me too
my secrets aren't safe
I'm singing out of tune
if there was no you
if there was no you

All along your way
the darkest night the longest day
I know what to say to make you laugh
and nothing you could do
could make me turn my back on you
when you're looking for a fight
I'm your man
when you need a friend
you got my hand
when you need a friend
you got my hand
you got my hand

:)

Sunt fericita... atat de fericita...si sper ca fericirea mea sa dureze...
Demult nu m-am simtit cum ma simt azi... perfect...
Sunt cea mai norocoasa..... e minunat... tu ma faci fericita!

And all i can do is try

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
But the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try, try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I learn
The more I cry the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Oh, try, try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be, we never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
We are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

Damn, damn, damn

Zana si inca ceva...

Didn't feel like myself these days... i need a break, big time....
undeva la munte... intr-o cabanuta.... un apus superb.... o cafea buna... si cineva special langa mine...
Well... i think i'll just stay home in my bed, tea in hand and music around... waiting the bad mood to just fly away...

Tell me darling true... what am i to you?

Ador melodia asta....
What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Vast as you can be
Deepest shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

Yeah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you

Music makes my day!

Something old...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FPPm4y3s_58
Something new...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZYbEL06lEU
Something borrowed...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jLPSLYbJT_0
Something blue...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNyGK7ymW0k

illusions

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams
That you've dreamed of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
And the dreams
That you've dreamed of
Dreams really do come true

Someday
I'll wish upon a star
And wake up
Where the clouds are far
Behind me
Where troubles melts
Like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.....

Movie vs Reality: What do you want from me?

In filme ai curajul sa zici orice... in realitate nu e chiar asa...
"I tried, so.... i really tried, but i can't... because i can't forget and i can't get over it(though i tried that too), so i decided to stop being an hypocrite and act like nothing ever happened and look as i really don't care(though i care) and begin to act as i feel...
so what? now i am a complete bitch... and you don't like it!
Get used to it! You turned me into one and you didn't even appologize!
I like myself as i am and i don't care anymore what you think about it. When you'll realize you were wrong and yes, you did something that hurt me, that you still are and stop complaining about this... maybe we will work it out. But till then, i am happy with this bitch inside myself!
Thank you for listening! Now how about cofee?"